I tend to be somewhat of an anxious person.  I will make little things really big things in my head by making up fake scenarious and acting as if they are really going to happen…when they never do. 

Something I have also noticed about myself is that with literally every single person I know…whether it’s my best friend or just a classmate that I rarely talk to…I end up thinking that they do not like me.  For some reason I have convinced myself at one time or another that a certain person finds me annoying or stupid.  But it is not that I think they dislike me all the time, maybe if I feel like I was talking to much or was too overbearing then I will begin to think that, ESPECIALLY when I am stressed because when I get stressed I usually am pretty frazzled and when I am frazzled I will ramble.  And for those of you who have witnessed this I apologize. 

It happens a lot and I get really insecure about it.  If I talk to one of my friends about it they always end up asking “why do you think that?” 

I wish I knew why I think that.  I guess it will just take more time for me to be comfortable in my own skin?  Maybe I need to mature a little more in my spiritual life?  I guess I will see.

I also do not want to give anyone the impression that it is anyone else’s fault, it’s only my own.  I am just a whole lot more sensative then what I come across and a word that has been used to describe me is “tender-hearted”, which I kind of laugh at that because it sounds so funny to say that someone is “tender-hearted, but I think I really may be.

I also want to emphasize that the purpose of this blog is NOT to get responses saying “oh Stephanie I think you are so great blah blah blah.”   I am not fishing for compliments or anyting, just sharing!

Hope everyone has a great rest of the week!